The Dreaded Process Xs 2

Three words: decide, commit and repeat

  1. No longer could I live in this manner; it’s unwise and unhealthy.
  2. Reluctantly, I admitted to myself it was time to hire professionals.

30-day challenges ahead:

  1. Social Media Detox
  2. Declutter the apartment
  3. Self-carebudget more time for self

It took me quite awhile to find the proper photo today coupled with toggling
back and forth between block and classic editing. 

Unfortunately, my budgeted computer time is about to expire and from past

experience  I’m fully aware:

I’m on my own to continue to clean up a sordid

life mess. 

Next post I’ll discuss my feelings on Part1 of this long overdue journey.


Fixed incomes don’t appreciate too many out-of-pocket expenses!!

Lost Late in Life

Five plus years ago when I started this blog I believed in my heart

placing words on paper void of all the personal details would

somehow be beneficial.

To a high degree I found blogging quite therapeutic.

In addition to my own articles I quite enjoyed participating in

daily / weekly prompts plus the interaction from other bloggers.

Yes, I considered myself an official member of Blogosphere.

And then along came the Pandemic . . .

Life became 10 times more difficult – maintain my sanity being ‘alone’,

I managed to keep busy and adapt to all the constant change.

Mid-may I interacted with an individual who was 6 plus months into AA recovery.

A child of an alcoholic I did my best to help – daily affirmations and texting – all

good – all above board = 100 % genuine.

Then either Facebook malfunctioned or said individual made decision no

more interaction (shut down).

It seems I didn’t take this type of rejection too well and best description of

my own feelings about this situation:

‘evolution of near becoming unglued’.

My entire life’s journey started to play out – the good, the bad and the ugly.

Confused, scared and fairly numb (still functional) I sought out reading material

a sudden need for info on what was happening to me so late in life.

It took awhile and then a book appeared – a book written for me – one all

about my sordid dysfunctional life.

The hard part was to admit to myself – like addicts do in the 12-step program.

It seems I’m a ‘Codependent’ and from time to time I’ll write about

the work I’m doing to overcome and hopefully find peace in my life.

You who I tried to help still follow me on here so I’ll say

Thank you” for sending me down a new path which when

I arrive at the finish line should find me in a better place within

my personal life.

No bitter feelings toward you who I considered a friend rather prayers for

continued success on your own day-to-day journey

God Bless!!