Old folks often experience short-term memory loss.
I’m sure there’s many medical reasons for this pattern.
How strange me, myself and I have no problem
recollecting every detail of events which took place
decades ago; however, without a list I tend somehow
to quickly forget portions of important stuff hence
the need for me to compose a list – make that plural.
Sharing from my journal entries today, I bring you
a Self-assessment list of ways to show myself love.
- reading the workbook
- completing the written exercises
- eating healthier – cooking for one fun
- try to get enough rest
- participate more in my hobbies
(I selected seven)
Number ‘seven’ was to limit time on social media.
Old habits are hard to break and although I followed
through even deleting some apps, I still have the
desire – the curiosity to view virtual friends I made
throughout the years and watch inspirational videos.
Today I had to brave a crowded supermarket amid
the current Covid surge since my locale is about to
be hit by a Northeaster starting in the early hours
of Friday morn.
After lunch I accessed my phone and watched some
reels, a video creation on my to-learn list.
One video was about ‘God and Your Call’ and
how he designed me and all aspects of my
life. The inspirational message ended with the
the following: ‘Until you walk into the fullness of
the thing you were created for you’ll be frustrated’,
These words, quite profound, didn’t exactly resonate
with me 100 percent and suddenly I became somber
pondering ‘the whys’.
It would have been wonderful to be born into a loving
family with some wealth.
Would I have been happier? Would I have been
blessed with more opportunities? Who knows?
Born into an extremely poor dysfunctional household,
moving past the negatives to creation of a decent life
only to have it taken away leaving me an emotional
prisoner, who do I thank.
Unfortunately for the viewer, some inspirational
messages can trigger a depressive mood.
I’ve learned to dismiss the intrusive thoughts
and keep the positive ones since all aren’t
exactly relatable to me.
I guess this is progress in my self-love journey.
Grief isn’t always related to death. A shame more
people don’t understand there are more than 40
life events that cause grief. Lucky me, I’ve
experienced all of them.