The Monday Peeve ~ Dormant

Doormat ‘people pleaser’ e’er since can remember

D istractions – constant
O bligations – constant
R egulations – constant
M otivation  – waxes and wanes
A pprehension – doubts ‘reality’ or ‘pipedream’
N egations – lack of interest and support of my endeavors
T ransformation – hopeful become a ‘free thinker’ – wishful thinkin’

People prefer to be around those who emit positivity (be it real or fake).
Unfortunately. I’ve been forced to live in the house of reality – its’ foundation
laid by others.
Sometimes a smile is genuine; other times tis fake (learned how to dismiss
my own true feelings).
Left alone (pretty much) to fend for myself doesn’t exactly make me the
happy camper.
I don’t want sympathy from people rather I wish they understood how difficult
it can be to always feign happiness when you are miserable.

Three Things Challenge #967

Today’s words:  dump – trash – regain

With no man to assist me, tis my job to take out the trash.
The dumpster (largest made for commercial usage) at the
apartment complex services two buildings.
Friday is the scheduled day one of the disposal firm’s garbage
trucks empties the gigantic bin.
By Wednesday of the following week, the container is already half to
near three quarters full.
Sometimes during hot weather months opening one of the two
sliding doors resulted in sudden stench – overcome by fumes.
Talk about necessary to regain one’s composure. 
The awful odor that permeated my nostrils made me gasp, gasp for
a breath of fresh air.

Throwback Thursday – #38 Visits to Doctors and/or Dentists

Questions to answer . . .
1) Were doctor/dentist appointments a regular part of your childhood?
2) Did you go for well-checks or just when you were ill or in pain?
3) Were you frightened by the medical professionals? If so, were there specific reasons?
4) Were your parents afraid of medical professionals?
5) Was waiting in the exam room stressful to you?
6) Did your early visits result in your being afraid of needles?
7) Does the sight of your own blood bother you?
8) Did you ever have the need to go to an emergency room?
9) Did your early experiences impact your current attitudes about medical care?

I read and re-read the questions. I’m choosing to share portions I can recall of
my nightmarish experiences in the dental chair.
My father (a functioning alcoholic) brought me for my first dental visit around
age 11.
I must have been experiencing pain for him to schedule that appointment.
The female dentist told my dad several of my teeth were in need of fillings.
I listened to the conversation. I wasn’t scared – no fear of the unknown.

Drill, drill, drill OUCH the dentist hit a nerve!!

Apparently ‘novacane’, a drug commonly used in dental procedures to
numb the area around the tooth to be worked on, was non-existent.

Lucky me!

There was no way to escape my fate. I had to endure several more times what I
consider to be God-awful pain.

I cringed, grabbed the arms of the dental chair and held on for dear life.

Once all the decay had been removed, a rinse and air blown into the space
previously occupied by decay followed. Last step in the process was placement
of the amalgam filling.

Relief until the ‘next’ appointment.

My feeling on this topic is: “I suffered because someone didn’t do their job
and watch over me”.

SoCS: May 7th

Today’s prompt: ‘a phrase you grew up with’

The first one that came to mind when I read this week’s prompt:

“Speak the truth and shame the devil.”

This common saying recorded by preacher, Hugh Latimer, dates
back to year 1555.

It’s a belief I’ve practiced my entire life. which backfired a few times
leaving me thinking why I didn’t conceal the truth.

I’m thankful to God that I maintained that persona and passed it down
to my children.

Today I can look in the mirror. wrinkles and all, and know I followed the
Lord’s guidelines.

The adverse effect of not telling the truth could result in lots of confusion.
miscommunication and hurtful feelings towards friends and loved ones.

Also, as we age our memory recall changes (not for the better).

If you tell the truth, the truth remains the same and no need to wonder
about words and comments.

Observation: Good Faith Versus Deception

Alas no degree

Blogger’s fun
Write posts pen poems

Preference all time
Quality o’er quantity

Pondering reason
Certain folk fan count excess

Assets minus liabilities
Formula owner’s equity

Blogger’s ratio question
Move forward calculations

Post receives 30 likes

Aware certain social media apps
A fee able follower count increase

Google search reveal manner

Deceptions adding paid-for numbers

All wish be numero uno
Followed liked ‘n well known

Best practice earn those followers
Sad learn exist patterns elusive near

Practice to deceive only individual hurt is self.