Hello! Self-awareness

It’s a holiday here in my locale.

Of course Mother Nature decided to send rain accompanied by rumbling thunder and occasional bolts of lightning to scare we humans a bit and ruin our outdoor plans.

I reminisce as I sit in front of my computer screen.

Suddenly out of the blue a few months ago I started to lack desire for my hobby thus no posts were submitted and my blog calendar pages show no markings.

I still wrote though whenever the mood struck. Lots of gabble that could be good copy sits and waits. Question to self: “For what?”

November’s one third of the writing challenge is printed out since learning a lesson about computers’ bad behavioral patterns and loss of ability to print out certain submissions.

Perhaps I found meeting the demands of daily word count to be an interference with daily activities and real-life socialization. After all, it’s me, myself and I during this last chapter of life where Golden years sadly turned to gray clouds overhead.

In the interim of my disappearance I gained a few ‘organic’ followers (unbelievable) and lost a few (expected).

It’s imperative I devise a new plan since organization is key to success. I can already hear the sounds of the paper shredder. I dislike clutter in my workspace.

So for now I shall promise myself to do better and keep with the postings and readings.

Thanks to all who made the journey enjoyable and ‘hello’ to newbies from around the world.

Your friend!

 

 

 

 

 

Can You Find Me?

Hello Y’all . . .

It’s been awhile!

Unfortunately the desire to continue my writing hobby came to a screeching halt one third way thru the November writing challenge.

Fifty thousand words seemed like a breeze until the daily commitment of even the average word count became a chore.

I vowed not to feel bad about the incompletion of the project and keep a positive attitude. It was a learning experience for me. I dislike writing fiction. The real world is where I shall reside forever.

Can you find me in the picture?

I’m the birdie looking back rather than forward. Why? Life dealt me many harsh blows during the past three decades.  Lots of major issues to process.

Wow, did I learn lessons about human behavior. You never really knows what’s in another’s mind. It’s like everyone is a stranger in disguise.

Death, divorce and deceit – a triple ‘D’ deal to process. It seemed as though I was walking thru a personal hell in order to get to the other side.

Although I started my blog for therapeutic reasons, I rarely discuss personal details. Why? Few would truly care and others love to plain gossip and embellish another’s unfortunate circumstances.

By the grace of the Lord I managed to survive thus far. Another challenge awaits me. The last chapter of my life – surviving alone.

When you are young it’s much easier to find or replace a partner due to death or divorce. The inventory is rather sparse for a senior citizen and with each birthday the possibility seems somewhat dimmer.

Dating sites are overpopulated with men who misrepresent themselves in numerous ways. They write or say what women wish to hear then like snakes turn on the decent ones.

I lived it. I’d rather keep my dignity and dine with my female acquaintances or family members than pay for my meals via offering up a ‘yes’ answer to a man’s request for that three-letter word ~ sex.

Today’s world certainly has become quite difficult for the genuine woman. Entering into a new normal relationship appears non-existent unless the Lord blesses me with a miracle.

Dare I refer to existence and new attitude as a ‘farce’? I think I shall do that in a quick acrostic poem.

F riendly smile
lways wondering
acing against time day ‘n night
ontinually maintaining semblance normalcy
mbracing new tech state of affairs wholeheartedly

© 2019 June Quintin

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

An Unprecedented Update

December 2018 last month calendar year
Quit blogging daily posts a hobby held dear

Started blogging purpose reasons therapeutic
Managed earn organic follows nice friends optic

Attempted great November novel challenge
Tabled it 'bout word count one third hinge

Realization romantic fantasy not easy write
Idea memories incorporate own experiences fright

End result for me no longer wish e'er remember thee
Reasons why the genuine decent woman lost spirituality

Mid-way thru plain stopped unbelievable quit mid-air
Rare occurrence life's professionalism lost somewhere

Questioned myself 'Who I Am' and 'Who I Wish Now Be'
Surprising optimistic answer headed for new territory

Deactivated portions social media valid personal reasons
Transformation underscore new ideas sprung holiday season

Location thousands bloggers daily read 'n write
Number similar posts written - a blogger's delight

No more waking up to find strangers' friend requests
Debates, sympathy ploys nor look how happy am I boasts

Decision last chapter life ahead utilize time left
Participation world reality - world I've known best

Intentions continue blog here - new year - new genre
Unless you be a member no longer hear - no longer share

Why? When this cruel world beat me up once too much
You who cared less turned around stayed out of touch

My small circle friends ne'er desert another in need
Rather beautiful friendships based sunshine - sweet tea

I'll miss morns tending daughter's memoriam garden app
Decade ago set up now frozen void flowers, critters 'n laughs

One flickering candle burns frozen in time remainder unless
Change of heart 'n mind temptation wins over decision process

Keeping with pro quo as most genuine decent people do
I say, "Farewell and God Bless" without further adieu!

© 2018 June Quintin


Albatross ~ Love ~ Abhorrence

What would you do?

It’s a known fact humans respond and react to circumstances often in pompous manners. How does a partner handle deceit?

  1. Counseling to figure out the ‘whys’ of the illicit behavior is a good first step in the process of salvaging a relationship.
  2. If both parties can communicate their innermost and brutally honest thoughts then there’s hope for the future, a reconciliation.  
  3. Forgiveness plays a most important role for both; however, the recipient who took the blunt force of the betrayal often finds it difficult to trust and forget.
  4. Spiritual healing works its’ magic to newfound happiness. Finalization of body-mind-soul combination helps rebuild a loving synchronous coexistence.

Outward appearances . . . ahead follows the nobody knows . . . the blasphemous secrets.

Deceit again!

A tangled web woven bestowed upon the innocent party now becomes a cross for individual to bear from point of revelation likely ’til death. 

He committed no crime yet tis he who suffers in silence. Long ago he tired of failed attempts with regard to solving the hardest jigsaw puzzle imaginable.

  1. Why did the most troublesome questions he posed to counselors go unanswered?
  2. Why were only hypothetical situations offered up by those professionals?
  3. Would their responses suffice?
  4. Would his life ever return to normal?
  5. Questions, questions and more questions ahead.

Viewers, stay tuned for the next chapter of what some might refer to as a soap opera.

© 2018 June Quintin

 

 

 

  

 

 

 

 

Bonne Anniversaire!!

Blogging Anniversary Day
Second Happy Blog Birthday

Special thanks fellow bloggers
Proud gain group organic followers

Posts write starting line therapy
Changeover recent genre poetic hobbie

Collection intellectual vocabulary words
Massive accumulation perchance absurd

Daily journal notes imperative write
Ideas appear sudden vamoose take flight

Memory recall selective thanks age older
List preparer otherwise sorrowful beholder

Virtual friends miles distance away learn from
Social media occasional via messages correspond

A grateful Mom, Grandma and Great-grandmom
Thankful warm reception Blog community welcome!!

© 2018 June Quintin

Cemented Memories

Sometimes darkness night
PTSD recurs, dreams fright

Ghastly ghosts ferment
Stories, turmoil, torment

Night pattern familiar
Sights bizarre, peculiar

E'erlast prediction doom
Switchover kick-ass gloom

Insomniac heartless witch
Costume designer lover stitch

Mood capable reverse
Positivity skills rehearse

Mornin' meet attendee
Necessity anxiety free

Breathing techniques
Calmness overcome thee

Underneath covers cower
Await daylight, pleasant tomorrow.

© 2018 June Quintin
Time blown in the zap zone

 

Blazing Cauldron

Group women evil
Masquerade witches

Cackling voices
Reference bitches

Dark secrets share
Eerie tales stir pot

Campfire ablaze
Revenge others plot

Brimstone boil over
Recipe turn fluke

Bad decision unanimous
Addition ingredient glueck 

Unprepared hot brew
Magical concoction react

Blasphemous gathering silence
Shutdown loose lips problematic.

© 2018 June Quintin
brimstone brew

Mishmash Emotional Clutter

Yesterday's ice cream social
Women unafraid topics vocal

Single status times hectic
Blogging proven therapeutic

Overcrowded emotional lacks space
Blankness facial appearance trace

Numbness other people's problems
Awareness incapable solve any demme

Strong versatile woman torn apart
Amazement allotment suffer broken heart

Recent question male stranger posed be
Ever thought search romance age seventy

Unheard words decades years previous
Familiar empath's world thanks deviousness

Eclectics usage creepie-peepies stratagem
Screw-up ne'er encounter partners genuine

Changed forever via situational history
Please: Say what you mean - mean what you say!

© 2018 June Quintin