SoCS: March 28th

Today’s prompt: ‘beside me’

Anxiety encompasses me

Fear feel visually don’t see

Try remain calm and busy

Social media awareness updates

Seriousness pandemic issues relate

Interact TV ‘n social media sudden hate

Listen adult children’s conversational concerns

Follow pleasurable thoughts spoken summer plans

In  ‘do-not resuscitate’ category age factor learn

Think how awful suffer then face last breath – die alone.


SoCS: March 28th

 

Anxiety – Fear – Invisible Enemy

A good writer
An avid reader 
Aft news gardener 

Time it takes to sit and read
Methods world population proceed
Particles of media outdated chose weed

Tis hard to believe age matters
Those 60 or over Triage procedures
Italians no longer treated – poor elderly

Sadness worldwide grows
Amidst medical status quo
Threat worsens new week unfolds

Sufferer anxiety ‘n depression
Counterproductive thoughts lessen
Social media access with discretion

 

 

JusJoJan Day No: 10 – Dogs

I wonder how many writers or perhaps how many times a writer has penned words
through tearful eyes.

I share little with regard to personal life. Friends and I often joke about the
response ‘Fine Thanks’  when asked the polite question: “How are you?”

I’ve been raked through the coals and only those who’ve walked the same path have
any knowledge of the stories.

I started blogging for therapeutic reasons and ‘yes’ it helped to put ‘some’ of those
feelings of heartbreak out there. I’ve kept the details private though with good reason.

Moving along I participated in challenges for fun and also to learn, learn and learn more.

Then along came the opportunity – a month long challenge – rough draft a novel.
My choice was totally out-of-the-box.

Daily I deal with GAD (Generalized Anxiety Disorder) and its’ friend Depression. Talk about illnesses that mess with one’s emotions.

I figured I had a dog’s chance of achieving my dream.

I grew dog-tired of going in circles and thought perhaps best to dog it period. 

This morn I attended a local author’s presentation and Poetry reading. It was quite beneficial.

I reflected on her words:
1. Time
2. Keep Trying
3. Celebrate Life

Could this combo be a heaven-sent message for me?? 

So without further adieu I’d like to share a picture of my favorite dog of the five dogs
that were part of my family. She’s a Lhasa Apso who was a family companion, loving
and attentive – slept beside me back when I was quite ill with a condition that took up
two paragraphs in a popular known set of encyclopedias. 

Puff after grooming visit - cutie

JusJoJan Day No: 10 – Dogs

 

 

Feeling Lost ~ Losing Battle

Wishful thinkin’
Write story – label fiction

Triggers everywhere
Branches social media

Who better become author
Tale atrocities earth mother

So tired of feeling victim                             
Resident emotional prison
caged - lost
Professionals questioned
Skirted answers – circumvention

Irked – abrupt stop therapy
Search ‘n find – felt the need

True facts plus lots research
Prior start endeavor seek solace God’s house – church.

~ JAQ

 

 

 

 

Timing ~ Too Late

Fear
Impossible
Solve problems

Solutions
Terrible timing
Emotional handcuffs

Confusion
Strange behavior
Apologize total unaware

Information
True-to-form
Understand now – too late

Life
Burdens bare
Years therapy – nowhere

Time
Decade questions – answers
Powerless world advances

Lessons
Overtime learn
Intrusive thoughts – stomach churns.

~ JAQ

 

 

 

 

 

Writing Prompt – Skulls and Shackles

Irksome uninvitees
Pesky fruit flies 
Wish share morn cup tea

Curse handcuffs of emotions
Tackle additional problem
Hopeful discover correct stratagem

Rid apartment fruit flies extreme fast 
Remedies combo vinegar quick fixes best 
Desire not be amid colony pests solo outcast

Skulled feelings exasperation
Struggle continue keep sterling reputation
Attempts overcome shackles anxiety 'n depression

~ JAQ
August Writing Prompts 







Stream of Consciousness Saturday – “Where” – Sitting Alone

Where do I begin
Older divorcee wish fit in
Joiner numerous senior groups
Friendly new acquaintance maker
Wisher for a place to hide
Whenever others speak of their wonderful lives
I know what it’s like to have-it-all for decades
Follow was death – deceit – divorce newfound fears
Combatted feelings best I could in spite of heightened anxiety
Imperative time make final preparations should become ill
Desire options available old gal wind up place other than nowhere.

~ JAQ

NOTE: This post is part of SoCS 

The Friday Reminder and Prompt for #SoCS August 10/19

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Picture Search – Found Myself

Rarely do I complain; I’d rather be a positive supporter. 

I’ve had my share (more than some less than others) of unfortunate life’s circumstances.

Social media networking has been quite therapeutic for me as well as writing for a hobby.

Today I found a good description of myself in the above picture – gal who has yet to manage putting the puzzle pieces together.

Losing someone you love dearly is difficult – losing one or more of your children far worse.

Listed below is a partial list of symptoms of grief I deal with to this day / night.

  •  Segmented sleep pattern
  •  Appetite changes 
  •  Difficulty concentrating for extended periods 
  •  Crying versus bothered and upset yet numbed out
  •  Social isolation  (fought this) 
  •  Anxiety attacks out of nowhere
  •  Depression – off and on
  •  Nightmares 
  •  List goes on

Inspirational messages and shared affirmations are definitely nice – momentarily only though as when alone one can sink into a pit of despair. 

I’ve no idea why some people have so much strength while others complain about the most trivial matters. 

If I could change places I’d opt out of being a Mother who lost children. It’s grief that never goes away.