Too Much To Learn

Four years ago when I started my blog I took the suggestion to connect

it to several branches of social media as this method was said to gain

more followers and better overall exposure.

This scenario didn’t happen – number of faithful followers grew

slowly and truth ‘yes’ I found it quite disappointing.

I wasn’t about to purchase followers as to me that’s a cheater’s way

of getting ahead.

The constant changes, the stored passwords disappearances, plus

weekly laptop and cell phone updates became a source of distress.

I thought about quitting blogging period.

In January to my dismay a challenge I participated in prior years

changed its format. Thoroughly disinterested I chose not to

commit myself.

I wondered if I’d ever return to this hobby and then I learned

of a local gal with two published poetry books experiencing

the same lack of interest in daily writing as I.

Phew! A sign of relief for me.

Reflections on my life’s tenure show a gal who despite some rather

terrible odds chose to continue to forge ahead.

I’ve never been a quitter only too much to learn

and lacking assistance became a bit overwhelming.

Time for a hiatus!

Did this former perfectionist self-sabotage her achievements

when about to reach a higher degree of success or

did she sadly become an emotional victim to the worldwide

predicaments beyond her control.

Those who suffer from depression still wear a smile most days.

I’ll know more once I chit-chat with my primary doctor next

week on a Zoom-type connection.

Now for a little questionnaire:

My score ranks quite low – laughable since folks state how you should

refrain from the word ‘never’.

Country gals (I’m one) don’t share these interests rather am happy

NOT being superficial.

I asked myself if I should’ve done this / that and the honest

answer is ‘NO’.

Self-help Book

Kindle reader
Insomniac’s brain feeder

Book selection
People-pleaser’s reflection

Mechanisms brain
Process necessary retrain

Personality tests
Truthful answers best

Suggestions follow
Tides daily ebb ‘n flow

Desire learn ‘n accomplish
Persona mindfulness obvious

Designate time write Shadow Journal
Schedule fresh-air walk curb feelings internal

Senior citizen old still young at heart
Assertiveness good method ne’er too late start

Would You Feel the Same Way – Question

Daily beautiful wishes she submits
Positive quotes full happiness emits

Good vibes certain not misunderstood
Decades grief-stricken similar words heard

Some days to friend gal sends nice reply
Others she reads proceeds pass posts by

Similar lives both be characterized genuine
Question why Lord place one in Hell other in Heaven

Multitude difficult years address same sweet person 
Told ignore another's happiness - dismiss comparison

Distraught wonder how she'd feel attitude dismay
Unfortunate life thrown basketful lemons her way

Few know depth true pain one experiences within
Gossip cheap thus refuse share feelings chagrin

Hard lessons learned maintain one's dignity
Additional follows wonder whereby retain sanity

Wishful thinking positive vibes exact lie ahead
Smiles, good times please no more absolute dreads

Blink of an eye - several moments in time
Entire world upside down creation 'ugh' slime

Discovery peoples' promises ne'er worth a damn
Affirmations broken friendships newfound clams

Whenever another wonders asks questions the 'whys'
Reveal little - caution inquisitives be like spies

Always willing to listen to others' tales of woes
Far from sight 'n sound friendship garden ne'er grow

Beauty surrounds couples amidst griever's life frozen
Loyalty, trust, shaken faith combination fake poison

How should one act - chosen words for world role play
When shocked suffer loss after loss gray cloud dismay

Smile for awhile works - keep up fake persona
Retreat behind four walls - a homebody - a loner 

Read countless inspirational messages social media
Repetitive 'how tos' - 'what tos' feedback encyclopedia

Refusal blame self for unrequited love guilt
Divorce imminent barred lifetime teamwork built

Occasionally wonder others feel walk in same shoes
To date ACOA rebuff self-medicate drink offers booze

Numerous questions - handful answers - total trues
Think what would you do same hideous fate bestow you.

© 2019 June Quintin

  






 

Mishmash Emotional Clutter

Yesterday's ice cream social
Women unafraid topics vocal

Single status times hectic
Blogging proven therapeutic

Overcrowded emotional lacks space
Blankness facial appearance trace

Numbness other people's problems
Awareness incapable solve any demme

Strong versatile woman torn apart
Amazement allotment suffer broken heart

Recent question male stranger posed be
Ever thought search romance age seventy

Unheard words decades years previous
Familiar empath's world thanks deviousness

Eclectics usage creepie-peepies stratagem
Screw-up ne'er encounter partners genuine

Changed forever via situational history
Please: Say what you mean - mean what you say!

© 2018 June Quintin








Typical Afternoon

Tis hot and humid outdoors 90 plus degrees
Sad I sweat windows down can't afford fix A/C

Transfer dollars bank to bank require usage ATM
Bank lobby men 'end of life' converse morbid Amen

Survival overheard gruesome details kept lunch down
Afternoon agenda shop closest supermarket hometown 

Slowly walk pushing basket up and down crowded aisles
Realization community frowners missing beautiful smiles

Six self-checkout machines non-stop spurt directions
Quick irritant customers chastise speak loud objections

Groceries onboard vehicle low mileage popular model SUV
Drive home low on gas unknown whereabouts station attendee

Grocery purchases unpacked safe cupboards some fridge stored 
Quiet time access PC mailroom partake personal beverage reward  

Surprise! Surprise! Excessive amount mail awaits thou view
Leave bulk of laughable contents another day posts in review. 

Fun choice write 'bout laughable afternoon excursion
Experimental follower count reader like versus aversion

Struggle feel abundance rejection writers certain face 
Older folk sad apparent limitation amidst beloved human race.

© 2018 June Quintin
 

The Meteorat

Monday morning motivation
Recreational warden
Replenish and rearrange
Personal virtual garden

Hello shy rat-like critter
Clan planet to planet drifters 
Manage consume tasty organic treats
Overnight owner's choice fail garden frozen keep

Morning read app wild life calculator index 
Discover Meteorat, classification fictional text
Resemblance end mop's handles quite laughable site
Ye spenders lifetime hitch-hikers aboard meteorites

Duration 55 - 60 minutes eat 'n go timespan
Change of plants app player's afternoon plan
Disappointment ahead tonight's schedule visit
Dumbfounded disappearance tasties surprise hesitate.

© 2018 June Quintin