Tag: #dark-side

Stream of Consciousness Saturday – “Where” – Sitting Alone

Where do I begin
Older divorcee wish fit in
Joiner numerous senior groups
Friendly new acquaintance maker
Wisher for a place to hide
Whenever others speak of their wonderful lives
I know what it’s like to have-it-all for decades
Follow was death – deceit – divorce newfound fears
Combatted feelings best I could in spite of heightened anxiety
Imperative time make final preparations should become ill
Desire options available old gal wind up place other than nowhere.

~ JAQ

NOTE: This post is part of SoCS 

The Friday Reminder and Prompt for #SoCS August 10/19

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Picture Search – Found Myself

Rarely do I complain; I’d rather be a positive supporter. 

I’ve had my share (more than some less than others) of unfortunate life’s circumstances.

Social media networking has been quite therapeutic for me as well as writing for a hobby.

Today I found a good description of myself in the above picture – gal who has yet to manage putting the puzzle pieces together.

Losing someone you love dearly is difficult – losing one or more of your children far worse.

Listed below is a partial list of symptoms of grief I deal with to this day / night.

  •  Segmented sleep pattern
  •  Appetite changes 
  •  Difficulty concentrating for extended periods 
  •  Crying versus bothered and upset yet numbed out
  •  Social isolation  (fought this) 
  •  Anxiety attacks out of nowhere
  •  Depression – off and on
  •  Nightmares 
  •  List goes on

Inspirational messages and shared affirmations are definitely nice – momentarily only though as when alone one can sink into a pit of despair. 

I’ve no idea why some people have so much strength while others complain about the most trivial matters. 

If I could change places I’d opt out of being a Mother who lost children. It’s grief that never goes away.