Difficult Times

Unbelievable!!

Sitting before computer feeling numb

Decorated Police Sergeant crossed over

Age 52 battle with Covid-19 succumb

Those left behind now broken-hearted

Grief journey begins mourning departed

A firm believer in the Lord questions


Online she watches funeral procession

For those who actually live with someone

Give thanks no idea feeling nights lonesome

Please don’t complain about caddy stuff

Result older woman possibility high throw up

Those who have lost loved ones understand me


Fact two children reside in Heaven unknowns quickly flee


Lately I wonder why God chose a keep me here plan


Renewed zest for living follow major operation stolen

Prepared emotionally,, spiritually obvious not chosen time

Aftermath prisoner intrusive thoughts spite ne’er commit crime

Down-trodden broken-hearted alone this cruel world daily face

Ask Lord reveal reason why actual timing deceit surface

Anger, bitterness ‘n resentment overwhelm
ed fight depression

Inner struggle desire overcome worse should go route confession

No idea if occasional writing reading between lines posts still therapeutic

Guess best keep quiet refrain reveal truth late stage in life serves no purpose

To divulge dirty secrets cause much personal familial strife
and critique

My cross to bear non-wish others burden thanks to real life reveal composer

JusJoJan Day No: 12

Today's word: gravity

The gravity of his illness was much worse. Who knew?

I'd researched the neurological disorder ALS and found although no
cure a patient could live another two to five years.

The holidays were upon us - extra duties - extra fuss.

I thought I'd check on my old friend. 

Happiness turned to sadness once I learned the reason for lack of
messages from him.

Years of employment; his retirement cut short. 

I sit. I think. I wonder. 

Was this man's newfound interest in the Lord starting in 2017 a prelude
genesis preparation to deal with the gravity of his then undiagnosed 
health situation. 

JusJoJan Day No: 12


Writing Prompt Day 21 – She was the Sun

Dahlia pink
Full bloom
Reminiscence
She bride - he groom

Green thumbs
Tenderers plants
Mass border 'n raised beds 
Cultivators chasers insects ants 

Country residents
Summer recreation treat
Variety skills learn
Growers veggies 'n flowers colorful sweet

She was the sun
Soft warm 'n brilliant
Sudden loss now bereaved
Mascara tears stain face rare comment

Gone fore'er days
Garden seeds seedlings homegrown
Present future unsettled
Sun was the sun questions answer monotone.

© 2019 June Quintin
 
July 2019 Writing Prompts




In Remembrance

Hello daughter
Heaven resident

Birthday fifty-two
Cemetery present

Early-on Lord chose you be with him
Leaving behind two beautiful children

Time and again ponder 'why' reason
Doubt overcome create faith treason

Cardinals and butterflies stare
Signs sweet daughter presence near

Sunny August summer evening you born
Adorable baby-blue eyes blond hair adorn

Motherhood kick off dream wonderful true
Fate face remainder life sweet memories of you.

© 2018 June Quintin








The Empty Hole

Exterior thankful whole
Interior broken heart holds

Grief assimilate tide's ebbs and flows
Five stages conclusion sudden undertow

No prelude exhaustive process loss
Survivors bear unfathomable cross

Acceptance unchosen future alone alas
Society's behavior liken senseless crass

Sadness empty gape forever unpaved
Thankful Lord concrete strength faith gave.

© 2018 June Quintin

Waiting on Heaven

 

Life exists daily basis
What to do, remember faces

Goals been met
One possible yet

Learn 'bout fun apps tech
Listen, trial plus error perfect

Attempt find suitable companion 
Reality unsuccessful compatible land-in

Alone write poems for therapy
Articles, magazines and shelf good reads

Book purchase or occasional library borrow
Romantic poetry and novel lines follow

Dear friends passed on
New acquaintances fun

Enjoyment participate activities
Smorgasbord interesting lovely ladies

Mass pray, sit and think what lies ahead
Unknowns capable do before pronounced dead

Attend weekly meeting few days ago
LCR game play dice around table flow

Day's guest supply women with dollars
Lucky winner gal's purse 10 xs 4 fuller

Speaker group suicide prevention support Samaritans
Informative spoke search volunteers telephones man

Listen depressed callers speak circumstances emotional
Seeking acceptance another human non-critical social

Individuals ignorant flaunt 'have it all' attitude
Lack empathy towards their fellow man's life solitude

Often times life for some certainly appear quite unfair
People wish hear details like spread gossip rarely care

Wise people learn valuable life lesson
Dumb ones brag 'bout worldly possessions

In the end the latter find unable take
Assets to their thousands dollars wake

What's left behind for loved ones cherish
Time well spent and love given prior perish

Unbelievable today wrote semi-morbid poem
Recent events appear set off internal alarm

Like me, Love me or Leave me Alone
People pleaser's final thoughts depart room. 

© 2018 June Quintin





 







Shambles

Virtual garden freeze
Profile deactivation please

Grown tired of fakes
Unsightly gruesome flakes

Feelings concrete shutdown
Desire grieve solely shown

Innermost feelings reflect
Questionable faith conflict

Capacity full emotional space
Memories loss 23 years ago face

Compassion, empathy, reality
Continual loss no fun actuality

Never expect anything from anyone
Expectations seem always hurt someone.

© 2018 June Quintin