Emotional Storm Passed

Unknown to me until recently a child who experienced

parental neglect is referred to as an abused child.
Revelation about myself!
Those three special words,‘I LOVE YOU’, unspoken

by my parents.

Reflecting back lack of affection was the norm.

Often a dysfunctional childhood has adult repercussions.

Although I vowed not to follow in either of my parents’
footsteps, it appears (can relate to now) perhaps I
experienced a lack of judgment in choice of partners.

It’s way too late to change history. Intrusive thoughts

be gone. Adios!!

Today I’ll chit-chat ’bout my ‘Rainbow baby‘, a term I

came across in my reading travels this past week.

By definition a ‘Rainbow baby‘ is a baby born

subsequent to the loss of a previous child.

My second pregnancy ended approximately six

weeks prior to the expected delivery date when

suddenly no longer could I feel any movement

within my quite large belly.

A trip to the OBGYN followed by tests at the

hospital was the beginning of a nightmare.

Two weeks following the test results I delivered

a perfectly formed blond hair, blue-eyed son

who had succumbed to effects from the

incompability of blood types between mother

and fetus (address this topic in a future post).

Unfortunate was mannerisms from the paternal

parent following the loss. Normally at top of a

spouse’s support list, the man I loved chose to

near desert me via his actions and lack of
compassion.
It wasn’t easy; however, through faith I survived

this ordeal.
Ah, back to the ‘Rainbow baby‘, my miracle

son born two years later on the same exact

date as his brother near to the minute.

‘A bit unbelievable – 100 percent truth’.
Perhaps I should make reference to him as

my ‘Double Rainbow baby‘.
I thanked God for my 8 lbs. 10ozs. blessing.
Soo many good memories!!
I’m extremely proud of him and all his

accomplishments.








Questions about Departed Loved Ones

Realization is many in life ask the Lord for assistance when in dire straits.

For some wishes are granted while others receive unanswered prayers – a mystery.

I’ve often heard loved ones speak of signs from dearly departed relatives.

Cardinals, butterflies, feathers, pennies in strange places, rainbows and visitation

dreams all were signs shared with me.

Personally I have experienced visitation dreams and the presence of a former

spouse numerous times to the point of awakening in a cold sweat thanks to

the dream being too vivid. 

Immediately I wrote down exactly what I remembered and then no more

dreams visits from individual. 

The areas with regards to signs I think about are:

  1. How does a person know exactly who is visiting from the other side from those other signs?
  2. If an individual is in a long-term marriage for over three decades, is that person 
    considered the soul mate or another from a second marital union?

Comments are welcome!!

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Would You Feel the Same Way – Question

Daily beautiful wishes she submits
Positive quotes full happiness emits

Good vibes certain not misunderstood
Decades grief-stricken similar words heard

Some days to friend gal sends nice reply
Others she reads proceeds pass posts by

Similar lives both be characterized genuine
Question why Lord place one in Hell other in Heaven

Multitude difficult years address same sweet person 
Told ignore another's happiness - dismiss comparison

Distraught wonder how she'd feel attitude dismay
Unfortunate life thrown basketful lemons her way

Few know depth true pain one experiences within
Gossip cheap thus refuse share feelings chagrin

Hard lessons learned maintain one's dignity
Additional follows wonder whereby retain sanity

Wishful thinking positive vibes exact lie ahead
Smiles, good times please no more absolute dreads

Blink of an eye - several moments in time
Entire world upside down creation 'ugh' slime

Discovery peoples' promises ne'er worth a damn
Affirmations broken friendships newfound clams

Whenever another wonders asks questions the 'whys'
Reveal little - caution inquisitives be like spies

Always willing to listen to others' tales of woes
Far from sight 'n sound friendship garden ne'er grow

Beauty surrounds couples amidst griever's life frozen
Loyalty, trust, shaken faith combination fake poison

How should one act - chosen words for world role play
When shocked suffer loss after loss gray cloud dismay

Smile for awhile works - keep up fake persona
Retreat behind four walls - a homebody - a loner 

Read countless inspirational messages social media
Repetitive 'how tos' - 'what tos' feedback encyclopedia

Refusal blame self for unrequited love guilt
Divorce imminent barred lifetime teamwork built

Occasionally wonder others feel walk in same shoes
To date ACOA rebuff self-medicate drink offers booze

Numerous questions - handful answers - total trues
Think what would you do same hideous fate bestow you.

© 2019 June Quintin