5 Things Tuesday ~ Skills Lost

Personal negative effects from the worldwide Pandemic:

  1. Both senior citizen centers I frequented weekly closed;
    no more opportunities for socialization.
  2. Aerobics and Zumba classes stopped plus no option
    for indoor walking those extremely hot summer days.
  3. I rarely saw my youngest daughter and grandchildren
    thus, I missed out on family celebrations.
  4. Bargain shopping became a thing of the past. I dislike
    regular shopping online.
  5. My faith slowly waned as depression showed up and
    alas there went my organizational skills.

https://saltedcaramel670.wordpress.com/2022/01/25/5-skills-you-have-lost-in-the-pandemic/

Emotional Storm Passed

Unknown to me until recently a child who experienced

parental neglect is referred to as an abused child.
Revelation about myself!
Those three special words,‘I LOVE YOU’, unspoken

by my parents.

Reflecting back lack of affection was the norm.

Often a dysfunctional childhood has adult repercussions.

Although I vowed not to follow in either of my parents’
footsteps, it appears (can relate to now) perhaps I
experienced a lack of judgment in choice of partners.

It’s way too late to change history. Intrusive thoughts

be gone. Adios!!

Today I’ll chit-chat ’bout my ‘Rainbow baby‘, a term I

came across in my reading travels this past week.

By definition a ‘Rainbow baby‘ is a baby born

subsequent to the loss of a previous child.

My second pregnancy ended approximately six

weeks prior to the expected delivery date when

suddenly no longer could I feel any movement

within my quite large belly.

A trip to the OBGYN followed by tests at the

hospital was the beginning of a nightmare.

Two weeks following the test results I delivered

a perfectly formed blond hair, blue-eyed son

who had succumbed to effects from the

incompability of blood types between mother

and fetus (address this topic in a future post).

Unfortunate was mannerisms from the paternal

parent following the loss. Normally at top of a

spouse’s support list, the man I loved chose to

near desert me via his actions and lack of
compassion.
It wasn’t easy; however, through faith I survived

this ordeal.
Ah, back to the ‘Rainbow baby‘, my miracle

son born two years later on the same exact

date as his brother near to the minute.

‘A bit unbelievable – 100 percent truth’.
Perhaps I should make reference to him as

my ‘Double Rainbow baby‘.
I thanked God for my 8 lbs. 10ozs. blessing.
Soo many good memories!!
I’m extremely proud of him and all his

accomplishments.








Questions about Departed Loved Ones

Realization is many in life ask the Lord for assistance when in dire straits.

For some wishes are granted while others receive unanswered prayers – a mystery.

I’ve often heard loved ones speak of signs from dearly departed relatives.

Cardinals, butterflies, feathers, pennies in strange places, rainbows and visitation

dreams all were signs shared with me.

Personally I have experienced visitation dreams and the presence of a former

spouse numerous times to the point of awakening in a cold sweat thanks to

the dream being too vivid. 

Immediately I wrote down exactly what I remembered and then no more

dreams visits from individual. 

The areas with regards to signs I think about are:

  1. How does a person know exactly who is visiting from the other side from those other signs?
  2. If an individual is in a long-term marriage for over three decades, is that person 
    considered the soul mate or another from a second marital union?

Comments are welcome!!

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Few Know The Struggle Within

Alone sits with grief
Stares in space disbelief
Lost place consider home
Commence again self alone
Unknown exact path turn
Remembrances forevermore yearn
Comparisons generate depression
Positives accept – disallow dat culprit win
Dismiss numerous intrusive sad thoughts
Countless shreds happiness future straightaway sought.

© 2019 June Quintin

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

In Remembrance

Hello daughter
Heaven resident

Birthday fifty-two
Cemetery present

Early-on Lord chose you be with him
Leaving behind two beautiful children

Time and again ponder 'why' reason
Doubt overcome create faith treason

Cardinals and butterflies stare
Signs sweet daughter presence near

Sunny August summer evening you born
Adorable baby-blue eyes blond hair adorn

Motherhood kick off dream wonderful true
Fate face remainder life sweet memories of you.

© 2018 June Quintin








Shambles

Virtual garden freeze
Profile deactivation please

Grown tired of fakes
Unsightly gruesome flakes

Feelings concrete shutdown
Desire grieve solely shown

Innermost feelings reflect
Questionable faith conflict

Capacity full emotional space
Memories loss 23 years ago face

Compassion, empathy, reality
Continual loss no fun actuality

Never expect anything from anyone
Expectations seem always hurt someone.

© 2018 June Quintin




 










Lenten Season

Catholicism gal's chosen religion
First attempt membership age eleven

Tagged along friends' sign-up Catechism
Oops! Parent's signature requirement registration

Requested paperwork in hand return home
Met with answer 'no' found self standing alone

Residence two homes from beautiful church
Sunday dress-up certain attend religious worship 

Age eighteen full ambition study topic religion  
Official journey underway pathway promise heaven 

Five decades later confusion how individual proceed
Apparent now worldly Smorgasbord Catholics supersede

Forty days 'n nights comprise annual season Lent
Time sinners think thoughts 'bout actual process repent

Favorite country tune's popular lyrics ring true
Tell me why - tell me what supposed do feeling blue

Few understand scenarios faced 'n walked through
Compassion and empathy fellow men failure anew

Watched afar life built slowly fell apart
Wonder location visit mend person's broken heart

Sincere attempt continue believe amidst topic loss
Show of faith comfort winner - refuse allow tragedy boss 

Ash Wednesday thru Easter observe annual Lenten season
Gal occasionally sit with thoughts ponder 'why' reasons

Nightly serving waffle cone ice cream only real vice
Managing 2018's decision Lenten's personal sacrifice

In spite situation thankful for each 'n every day
Adhere advice 'forgive enemies - continue to pray'.

© June Quintin 2018