Creative Life of Today's Youthful Senior Citizen
Today’s words: allow – permission – permit
PTSD reason
calendar month March no show
shock value permit
omission ‘trigger warning’
sad, high-price lesson
self-permission grant
limited newbies access
allow posts feedback
seven years blogging
never imagined setback
abuse post read haps
mental health no joke
concern for readers abide
think prior share writes
https://pensitivity101.wordpress.com/2024/04/12/three-things-challenge-M662/
Questions to answer:
Have you ever felt that one particular activity seemed to
consume more of your life than you were happy about?
Was it work, a hobby which got out of hand, health concerns
or something else?
Lastly have you managed to take back control or does it still
seem to be running the show?
Reflecting back there have been several I could discuss. At
the time I didn’t exactly feel unhappy nor overwhelmed by
any of them.
To be able to help someone who for specific health reasons
couldn’t leave the house was what a loving daughter would
do without giving a second thought to time involved or the
distance in miles walked pushing a baby carriage from one
end of town to another.
When I arrived at my destination, I would drop off the mail
and run errands in the center of town. I didn’t question the
mental state of the mother who’d never really acted like
all my friends’ moms.
These errands would have taken her approximately 15 to
45 minutes only she suffered from ‘agoraphobia’ and feared
leaving the house.
True fact: ‘For 10 years she never went outside, not even to
take out the trash’.
Back in the 60s people weren’t educated about mental health.
Today myself a diagnosed generalized anxiety disorder patient
who suffers out-of-the-blue panic attacks I understand much
about the distress she experienced over decades with no medical
diagnosis nor treatment.
I’ve made peace with what was, what wasn’t and what could
have been thanks to medical knowledge gained inclusive a
a course in Abnormal Psychology.
In my heart I feel I did the best I could for a woman who
never once told me she loved me and tried many times to
undermine and interfere with my life’s choices.
https://pcguyiv.wordpress.com/2022/02/22/truthful-tuesday-february-22nd-2022/
Heartbroken feelings
Misplaced alone abandoned
Scenario feared
Hidden Ageism nightmares
Fake smiles combat depression
Today’s prompts – morbid / lost
Prepped healthy breakfast
Me, myself and I – feeling lost
Another day alone face
Refrain complain happiness fake
Divorce unfortunate myriad loss
Ninety degrees heat remain indoors
Genetics – counseling – society’s views
Health crisis social distancing
God-awful morbid thoughts
Fearful history repeat Agoraphobic outcome
Realization and admission of factors set me back – impossible move forward path.
Tired of all the bull-crap people peddle seems like each forgot wear rubber boots
before dancing in puddles.
It’s hard to admit defeat – always thought continue the struggle – win – beat.
Tis not I consider self a failure; tis trying to do too much late in life alone well
competition difficult for one-man band.
I’ve read the posts written about events of people’s weeks – interesting some
complain while others embellish.
I’m onboard with knowledge of people prefer positivity over negativity only
a certain few need to get grips on own reality.
Life seems easier for the rich – harder for the middle class.
Does that any longer actually exist?
I empathize with the minority folk extremely poor.
The percentage of humans suffering due to circumstances beyond their control
continues to grow – a first morning read facts untold.
Scrolled down to find a well-written article on the topic of the global
virus beginning to hit close to home in the states – no concern social status.
It’s truly scary – people worldwide panic-stricken – actual number of victims risen.
When shopping in recent days I’ve witnessed people wearing masks.
Try not overthink since reasons why crossed my mind be measure precautionary
Versus someone been in close contact with infected person possibility.
Went on to read an article about a benign illness my own body had succumbed to
back in the 90s. Various thoughts ran thru my head due to words I read – really?
An actual patient educated with facts I was quite shocked to read some words
because I questioned those written facts.
Unbelievable but true:
I actually was thankful when my computer malfunctioned – usual an occurrence
often dread.
Well I’ve blogged today – no prompts rather lots of random thoughts.
With that I’ll leave you with a beautiful picture-perfect inspirational quote
which could be the front of a Hallmark card uncertain what occasion though
‘Thinking of You’ how nice:
Do I stay or do I go?
The question ask – once – twice -thrice
Smile worn – a detective mask
A scout in search of viable answers
Unfortunately pen ran out of ink
Throes levels depression sink
Desires imperative manifest
Senior Centers gather social places
In response to:
#3TC – mask – scout – pen
#RDP – go
#FOWC – social
Oh Lord Questions What happened Where were you Heart-rending tale Angel wings Two children Depart Heaven Biological mother To date heart-broken Nightmarish dreams haunt Ghost-like memories Who does she thank Suffers familial PTSD Intrusive thoughts Dismiss-lose-Cheeri-Oh. The Friday Reminder and Prompt for #SoCS Oct. 19/19
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