Toxic people additional heartbreak

Gloomy day lack sunshine
Positives versus negatives
Awful attitude today think
Like me_hate me
Laugh with me_laugh at me
Your opinion doesn’t matter to me.
Don’t care – won’t care – refuse to care
Stay – walk away – doesn’t matter either way
How you treat me in real life, app life, blog life
Determining factor with regard to continuance friendship
Reading printed thoughts on paper appear be in self-argument
Truth is I’m past tired of being that nice individual screwed over.
Inspirational quotes about who is responsible for your happiness – ‘you’.
I certainly hope Testy Tuesday is less aggravating than Motivational Monday.




Forget-Me-Nots

This flower was one of several I chose to plant at my daughter’s

gravesite 25 years ago.

To me it symbolized a connection that lasts thru time, true and

undying love for a daughter whose life was taken way too soon.

Time passed; however, the ache of losing her still remains.

A parent’s nightmare!!

Germans coined the name of this flower and there’s a few myths

floating the hemisphere addressing its floral beauty.

One lovers’ myth, although quite sad, warmed my heart.

It read of two lovers walking the Danube River, spotting the bright

blue blossoms, the man’s desire to fetch some of these delicate

petite blue flowers with petals resembling the shape of a mouse’s ear

(cute tidbit of info) for the lady when suddenly swept up by the river.

As he was floating away at a distance he spoke the words to her

to ‘not forget him’.

Romantic!!

If someone asked me why I was writing this post the honest answer

would be, “I have no idea“.

Today isn’t one of those special days, the more painful ones

experienced by a Mother who has lost a child.

Thinking to myself perhaps the answer lies in an event that transpired

earlier today.

This morn’s social media journey was different as I chose to bypass

articles on my homepage’s slideshow.

Rather I headed over here to WordPress and read some truly

inspirational posts – a great start to a sunny, blustery day.

Before I shut down I accessed Facebook to tend to the garden I created

11 years and 5 months ago in memory of my daughter known to some

as TuffiMcGuffi.

In recent weeks the Fairyland app had been under maintenance.

Today it wasn’t listed on the sidebar and I couldn’t find a way to

access it.

Wonderful!!

Another creation taken from me without warning.

Needless to say although I shut the computer off and figured I’d wait

awhile to check back, my mood changed dramatically.






Cemented Memories

Sometimes darkness night
PTSD recurs, dreams fright

Ghastly ghosts ferment
Stories, turmoil, torment

Night pattern familiar
Sights bizarre, peculiar

E'erlast prediction doom
Switchover kick-ass gloom

Insomniac heartless witch
Costume designer lover stitch

Mood capable reverse
Positivity skills rehearse

Mornin' meet attendee
Necessity anxiety free

Breathing techniques
Calmness overcome thee

Underneath covers cower
Await daylight, pleasant tomorrow.

© 2018 June Quintin
Time blown in the zap zone

 

Believe in Yourself !!

Hello Fellow Bloggers. . .

Today’s mood was on a spiral down until I read another’s blogger’s post with regard to expectations. 

For me, writing is a hobby as I am a retiree – an antique as I often quick-wit refer to myself.

Although writing wasn’t my profession, I often place undue pressure upon myself with regard to creation of what I consider an art – the formation of a masterpiece.  

Necessary chores completed I had yet to print out some requested forms. For fun I browsed through my stored collection of picture downloads and out of the blue as if the Good Lord knew what I needed to read I came across the following prayer.

I thought it would be a nice gesture to share it with others who may experience doubt on occasion and wonder if blogging is a sheer waste of  precious time. 

"The Knots Prayer"
Dear God, please untie the knots
that are in my mind, my heart
and my life.
Remove the have-nots, the can-nots
and the do-nots I have in my mind.

Erase the will-nots, may-nots,
might-nots that may find a home 
in my heart.

Release me from the could-nots,
would-nots and should-nots
that obstruct my life.

And most of all, 
Dear God, I ask that you 
remove from my mind, my heart
and my life all of the am-nots
that I have allowed to hold me back,
especially the thought,
that I am not good enough.
Amen.

~~ Author Unknown ~~ 

Fandango’s Friday Flashback — September 6