No Internet Connection: Aggravation

Yesterday early morn when the internet was still available I
started deleting photos (a process in progress) to free up
space.
And then I came across a ‘shortcut’ only to find numerous
photos and documents relocated when technology decided
to take over.
Lovely, I thought to myself as I proceeded to access each
and decide if to keep or place in recycle bin.
Then I found a poem I’d written in 2018 and thought I’d
repost it after my errands were completed for the day.
Surprise, surprise ‘no internet connection’ which lasted for
several hours.
Today I searched the year I posted the poem on here and
with 12 months to the calendar year of course the last one
I accessed showed the poem.
In shock I looked at the format and wondered why the
words followed one another rather than in a poem’s format.
Anyway, I’ll repost the poem I wrote.
“The Empty Hole”

Exterior thankful whole
Interior broken heart holds

Grief assimilates tides ebbs and flows
Five stages conclusion sudden undertow

Sadness empty gape forever unpaved
Thankful ‘Lord’ concrete faith to me gave

No prelude exhaustive process loss
Survivors bear unfathomable cross

Acceptance unchosen future alone alas
Society’s behaviors liken senseless crass.

I read this and to myself thought how
little my thoughts and feelings changed
during the past three plus years following
penning this poem.

Imprisoned by emotions:

Words Another Wrote – Feelings

Sit staring at computer screen
Quietly refrain desire scream

To left medium-sized ice cold beverage
Limited edition summer drink envisage

Strawberry Dragon fruit refresher label
Read friends’ posts pen words near incapable

Finds daylight hours always pass way too fast
Dusk then darkness another night alone to pass

Counseling, inspirations, affirmations insignificant
Constant thoughts go berserk thus far circumvent

Melted ice cubes signal end afternoon pick-me-up
Supper to prep – dishes to wash – reality life envelope

 

 

 

 

Prayer – Religion – Over the Years

These days I rarely utilize my computer during evening hours.

I’ve grown tired of all the hype and fear instilled within thanks to social media.

The news app on my cell phone constantly dings with near 100 percent negative

articles.

Windows 10 updated and ‘Hello’ a new challenge with more decision-making

ahead.

This morn I downloaded a pic of a beautiful crocheted granny square only

to discover hours later I’m unable to proceed as ‘I wish’.

It’s evident I’m in control of zilch at this point until I piece together yet

another puzzle.

I’ve come to the conclusion life known ‘n created now phase non-existence.

I don’t understand!! 

Little makes sense anymore.

I ponder thoughts:

Better to safeguard wholesome feelings still within ‘heart’

Settle ‘good try’ leave incomplete unfulfilled dream ‘depart’

Seek new direction versus continue move forward ‘restart’

Mirror reflections tenure life ne’er consider self be ‘quitter’

Troublesome times worldwide persona creation ’embitter’

Conclusion – pen words persevere forward personal ‘transmitter’

As a reader you may wonder how the contents of this post relate to the title.

The story began with an innocent young girl’s desire to join and participate

in Catechism class.

At registration she was handed a form which required her parents’ permission.

Returning home with much anticipation for the signature to learn Catholicism 

she found herself face-to-face with negativity void of explanation. 

Answer: ‘NO!’

Although she wasn’t allowed to attend weekly CCD class, she proceeded each 

week to dress in her Sunday best and attend Mass. 

Who knew??

One day many years later, married with children of her own, she’d be teaching 

religion from her home to young students.

That girl was ‘ME’.

Although life’s circumstances changed in recent years (not for the better), I’ll

continue to maintain my beliefs until I no longer exist here on Earth and can

rest in God’s arms. 

 

 

 

 

Stairway to Heaven – Beauty beyond Belief

Reflect back personal life assessment
True-to-life dreams sudden omnipresent

Loved ones gone many years before me
Decide while asleep appear awake faces see

Twenty minutes notes taken from memory
Certain future make for quite interesting story

So many signs – so many repetitive numbers
Honestly scared to rest my head to slumber

Strange happenings finding rather creepie
Message to self early turnoff creepie-peepies

Hot cup of tea ‘n good book to read choice
Hopeful able prevent more nightmarish voices

Wonder reasons attribute dream remembrances
Alternative be heaven-sent messages significances

This morn this poem I wrote untold facts between lines
Notebook status storage space private thoughts self mine

Death of a Child – Heartbreaking

June 25th – year 1995
Age 28 – too young to die

Daughter’s three-day ICU stay
Prayed, cried – reality God-awful day

Final tests taken Mother recalls
Results received inhouse hospital call

Nurses’ station stand listened intently
Aware eyes on me curious watch reaction relentlessly

Somehow managed though difficult hold composure
Return room – shut door – punch walls – scream – no Lord!

A quarter century ago life changed for numerous loved ones
To date we think, we cry, we miss you – days even feelings numb

Moments in time on Earth smile, recollect with pride so special
Today as usual I pray you’re dancing in Heaven amidst all the Angels

 

 

Memories Dating Back to the 60s

Blue Cornflower percolator he – he -he
Bridal shower gift dating back mid 1960s

Brand new bride appear lack common sense
Coffee first attempt void cooking experience

Necessary follow instructions – definite not she
Brewing tasteful coffee certain easy no difficulty

Til husband’s loud question spun head around
Instructions in hand recipe coffee shown found 

Hun thought twas supposed to fill entire basket
No idea prepping strong coffee result hairy chest

 

 

 

St. Patrick’s Day 2020

Life zigzagging off course
Invisible enemy Coronavirus
Isolation rules  bans enforced

Family gathering St. Paddy’s Day dinner
Corn beef ‘n cabbage scrumptious winner
Cancelled – order takeout delivery manner

Worldwide millions daily regimen disrupted
Morning read articles politicians corrupted
First day felt desire applaud friends anti-Trumpees  

Appear country leader ignore magnitude health crisis
Elected officials wait orders ‘what to do’ teeter edge abyss
Relax – it will go away – common sense – epidemic impossible dismiss 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Faith and Priorities

Today still uncertain
Best close final curtain

Lord’s messages sent
Interpretations present

Decision address ‘n face
Priorities life misplaced

Whene’er new ideas react
Goal progress sidetracked

Creation last vid clip past weekend
Bid ‘adieu’ thousands virtual friends

Unmarked lit calendar squares near
Allowance time for personal self-care

Thoughts ahead return limited basis
Change niche new journey she embraces

 

 

 

 

 

Saturday Mix – Rhyme Time, 7 March 2020

Today’s words: mock, shock, stock, lock, block, hock

Five minute drive to purchase a ham hock
Shopper unaware auto problem in for a shock
Return discover key unable open car door lock
Phone mechanic shop located around the block
Tumbler problem replacement part out-of-stock
Ignore dashboard’s maintenance warning light result self-mock

Saturday Mix – Rhyme Time, 7 March 2020